Nov. 24
What am I going to do with my life?

That question is suddenly the cause for much confusion. I don't like to waste time, I don't want to wait to figure out what the future holds. I need to decide on my destiny before it happens. Honestly, isn't it kind of absurd that I need to choose my career at age 17? Yes. but I can't go through 4 years of school, not knowing yet. That's such a waste of life. I want to live, I need to know.

I want so much to make films but that can't be ALL the world has in store for me. What do I have for the world? Sure I'd love to be a journalist of sorts, but how long will that passion last? And what would I write about? I can't focus on bad news in my writing, so what kind of journalism is there that combines my loves in the world? I want to find a way to help people in need; people who need love, who need shelter, and food. But can I really dedicate my life to such a tremendous project? I'd be worried about spreading myself too thin. How can you decide what causes need your attention most? And how do you create a lifestyle around helping others?

Should you let destiny take over and have faith that things will fall into place if you just live life with a thirst for passions and knowledge, knowing that one day they will come together to form your entire future and determine your contribution to the world? Or do you push things to happen and leave no risk that time will run out, chances will become unavailable or interests will no longer be as tempting, leaving you lost with no sense of what will bring true richness to life?

How can you decipher between what is meant to happen and what you need to make happen? Does destiny need a little pish now and then? Do you have to decide exactly what paths you will take or just prepare yourself for the road you will get led down? I do not know these answers, but at least I'm asking the questions.




Finally, I've made a definite decisions on my senior quote...
"As a well-spent day brings happy sleep, so a life well used brings happy death."
-Leonardo Da Vinci


Never ever leave w/o telling your loves ones how you feel.
Never take anything for granted.


Nov. 5
Things are going all right these days, you know. Good friends. Good times. Good days. Great weather. It's November and I have both windows open with barely a cool breeze floating through.

Today after school, some hockey and soccer players went at it. We played hockey with the soccer team. Lots of fun, bits of sweat. The moments of life that take my breath away are ones such as these. Memories of true adolescence, youth at its very best. Hockey is over now, but the spirit of that bond and collection of memories will last within me for years to come. And it's days and times like these that solidify the idea that high school is the best time of your life.